I am going to revive my blog.. wohoo.. today was awesome.. Had Hospitality hangout with many many people!! and as always i am the joke of the day but who cares if it brings a smile on peoples face it is all worth it.. haha.. but i miss hospitality duties.. miss it man.. ok i got to go now.. 1)watch gossip girls then sleep.. haha good night everyone...

i love my life..

-@lvin-

Today is the start of a new week.. I am so going to start this week right. As i sat at the sofa thinking of what happened last week or even the week before, i realized that it has already happened and why not make the best out of it. Well i may still feel the pinch of it. But to me right now what matters most is my growth in God and the relationship i have with Him. It has really been down down down the past week and i think i got to be back on track.. YES i got to be back on track. i cannot let emotions ruin the plans God has for me, i cannot let insecurity take over my life. I got to grow grow grow!! amen.. i am so going to set my life right from this moment haha.. well life is great and i wont say that it is perfect cos there are ups and downs in our lives but i know with God's strength, my weakness is made good.. yupp i will grow.. Leaders and friends whom has always been worried about me,i will be God dependent and not worry u all anymore haha.. alvin is alright man..

Hi frens, though i am having holidays now, it seems so saddening and gloom.. so many things happened within a week.. and i mean many things. Ranging from problems to problems then solved already still got things happening.. hais.. nvm i shall get over it and grow from it.. Security in God. AMEN!! INTO GOD DEPENDENCE.. HERE I COME... haha.. wait and see..


-@lvin-

I AM SOSOSOSOSO HAPPY!! THANK YOU GOD. this few days i experienced growth though it was difficult but i got through it and it was great man. difficult yet i am able. with GOD all things are possible. AMEN??.. yehhh i am HAPPYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NO LONGER EMO>> I GOT A VISION AND A GOOD FREN A GOOD BRO AND MOST IMPORTANTLY GOD.. thanks so much for putting me back on track=)

LOVE GOD FOR WHAT HE HAS PLANNED

whoot.. it is indeed God planned and some more so detailed... got back my exam results and i indeed need to pull up my socks.. haha.. frens God is always there for u. Dont be despaired.. cos he loves u..=) smiles

  Hi eveyone!! i am back.. got up and was quite emo in the morning today but now i guess i am ok already.. sianned.. thoughts just came running through my mind today.. thoughts of uncertanity.. thoughts that really question my spiritual walk. I know i should not have such questions in me but it just kept coming back to me moments and moments again.. i feel so hais.. dunno what to say.. but i can only remind my self this 4 words. Security and Godly dreams.. yupp.. ok now i am at hospi and Pastor Aries is coming later got to go byeeee....

Disappointed

Sigh.. what was i thinking. How could i have let such a important meeting slip past my mind...

sigh.. why did everything go down a spiral in just a split day? what in the world did i do? sigh.. i really wish all this did not happen.. am sick and tired of it.. argh.. wonder what will the promise of going to yum cha going to become. wonder what the shopping outings promised going to become. i wonder what is the word of going to ask me to go buy new phone with u going ot become. sigh. am i realy ********** that you have got to ask me to shut up? sigh.. i dun wanna end it this way.. friends. what do they mean to me? i can only say if i were to lose a fren it is like removing a part of ur flesh using a knife.. but oh well.. i dunnoo sigh.. i got to go have exam tomorrow.. bb

Sigh the world is spinning around but here i am thinking. deep in thoughts. i feel so out of place. i feel so alone i guess.. sometimes i just wanna cry a whole lot out. and is really alot.. it is not emotional but is an array of feelings that are waiting to burst out. but these are negative feelings. People say do not let emotions lead you. I tried but it somehow got over me. i was so scared, so afraid yesterday. Dunoo what is going to happen in future but i am unable to change myself back to the way i am.. i guess i need time. Time heals wounds but it will leave a scar in the end. Hanging on to the string. dunno when will it just break. Sigh.. who am i to complain?

LIFE!! live right.. live good.. i need u oh God..

Gloomy hours... minutes or even seconds.. i am dead tired.. understand.. who understands though... exams in 1 week, problems piling up( studyyy).. sigh life aint good.. but i am in a good life.. me not functioning well.. poly life is really a whole new level..alot of stress ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. but still my faith resides in God..

Sigh somethimes i dunno what is happening.. i feel that i am going down like a spiral staircase.. went home alone yesterday and had many thoughts in my mind.. had a good talk with God yesterday and i somehow dont seem to understand things that are happening now but i guess this is what God wants me to go through to overcome it. I may not be a leader, a Ptl or a Tl but i can do things that they can do. I may not be the ministry head but if i go the extra mile i know i can be like them, with the same thinking about others, with the leadership, witht the heart to serve. exams in 50 mins time.. i got to go.. problems surface but i know i have got to overcome them one by one.. God pls help me...

HIHI.... I AM EMO. ELMO WITHOUT LEGS... MUAHAHAHAHA

I AM SIANNED AND TIRED>> RAHHHHHHH

Guess my blog is dead but.. guess what i am back.. hmm.. i am so lost and... just so lost.. i dun know what is happening to me.. just simply lost i guess... i am not emoing but duuno lah.. just a mixture of feelings.. updates in my life: had usher and was really fun. maybe i should join usher?? haha.. dunno.. ok i got to go.. bye bye..

WOW what a power packed week i had.. hmm life still goes on in school but i know through friday and the weekends, something in my heart has changed. Wow i feel different. i fell like i am the old alvin just that i have changed much and it is the positive side. There is one thing that i have indeed overcomed. and that is lonliness. I know that God will always be there for me. I am never alone.. 1 word and it will change my life. sometimes it just takes a few falls before u realised what u did was wrong and here comes your leader whom took u by ur hand and shook u up from your darkness pit. I was once lost but now i am found. i am so prevelidged to be cared by leaders, loved by pastors. I wanna cherish everything and keep them close to my heart and i will.. Wow.. Hmm today a miracle happened. it was indeed God whom had His hand over this situation.. Here is the story: i dropped my wallet yesterday and only found out this morning. Someine found the wallet and there was my Ic inside thus that person brought the wallet to my house gate and left it at the gate and my dad found it and pass to me. Wow isnt it a miracle? haha.. and what was the most fascinating thing was that nothing was missing in the wallet. not even my photo or the $1.10 that i had left in my wallet.. It must be God.. WOW my Daddy was there for me and looking after me.. haha.. so many times i have been crying out if that was here why did this happen to me?? But now i know that God is in a distance and if i take 1 step closer to Him, He will take 10 steps closer to me. My life is totally changed and i know it is indded going to be better. I will rise up. I will be on fire. I will abide God's word and more that hearer of the word, i will be the doer of the word. ADOPT!! haha

Stagnent and stucked... hmm guess that is what i am feeling right now. Not emo but just frustrated and many other things. come to think of it, sometimes i feel that the smile you see on some people faces might not be what it really seems to be.. i can say sometimes i see that happen to people. But who does not want to lead a happy life? Changes has been made and can only abide too it. But something is tugging.. haha.. hmm school was great, other than the massive number of homework and the nevver ending notes on cms.. it was great i suppose.. i have chose my cca haha.. it is astronomy and archery.. lol... what more can i say?? i guess nothing more.. well ok got to rush to church.. bye peeps

Yozz i am back haha.. Orientation was good and the class seems to be very united. haha anyway we had loads of fun and i believe we have indeed bonded much. School is going to start and i am sort of excited for it. And why?? cos i have slacked at home for more than 4 months. about there la haha.. saturday and sunday was a good service. Pastor kevin loo was indeed a good pastor. Through it i have indeed learnt much. FINANCIAL PIE is important. Must plan ur life.. haha.. ok la got to go bye

Hihi.. yesterday was reading 1 corinthians and i had many revelations. 1 corinthians is a book on what apostle paul wants the corinthians to change their life in. And since God has dropped this dream in me i know He wants me to do something to the life that i am leading. sometimes questions just runs through my mind.. many questions.. i always ask myself do i have the ability to catch up with the reat. Yes my spirit wants to but the body is reluctant. I WANNA GROW. i want to run this race to the end. I will perserve till the race ends. But i know i have to tap into the strength of the Lord and i will. i realised using ur own strength will make u burnt out. But it makes a great deal of difference when u tap into God's strength. I know it and why, it is bcos i have experienced it before.. but i know i will not have that experience again. I will find solutions to my problem and not burden my leaders or my brothers or sisters.. i learn that i should depend more on God and not based on my own understanding.. thus i pledge myslef to GROW.. and i will thanks so much.. smiles.. got to go