Hi eveyone!! i am back.. got up and was quite emo in the morning today but now i guess i am ok already.. sianned.. thoughts just came running through my mind today.. thoughts of uncertanity.. thoughts that really question my spiritual walk. I know i should not have such questions in me but it just kept coming back to me moments and moments again.. i feel so hais.. dunno what to say.. but i can only remind my self this 4 words. Security and Godly dreams.. yupp.. ok now i am at hospi and Pastor Aries is coming later got to go byeeee....

Disappointed

Sigh.. what was i thinking. How could i have let such a important meeting slip past my mind...

sigh.. why did everything go down a spiral in just a split day? what in the world did i do? sigh.. i really wish all this did not happen.. am sick and tired of it.. argh.. wonder what will the promise of going to yum cha going to become. wonder what the shopping outings promised going to become. i wonder what is the word of going to ask me to go buy new phone with u going ot become. sigh. am i realy ********** that you have got to ask me to shut up? sigh.. i dun wanna end it this way.. friends. what do they mean to me? i can only say if i were to lose a fren it is like removing a part of ur flesh using a knife.. but oh well.. i dunnoo sigh.. i got to go have exam tomorrow.. bb

Sigh the world is spinning around but here i am thinking. deep in thoughts. i feel so out of place. i feel so alone i guess.. sometimes i just wanna cry a whole lot out. and is really alot.. it is not emotional but is an array of feelings that are waiting to burst out. but these are negative feelings. People say do not let emotions lead you. I tried but it somehow got over me. i was so scared, so afraid yesterday. Dunoo what is going to happen in future but i am unable to change myself back to the way i am.. i guess i need time. Time heals wounds but it will leave a scar in the end. Hanging on to the string. dunno when will it just break. Sigh.. who am i to complain?

LIFE!! live right.. live good.. i need u oh God..

Gloomy hours... minutes or even seconds.. i am dead tired.. understand.. who understands though... exams in 1 week, problems piling up( studyyy).. sigh life aint good.. but i am in a good life.. me not functioning well.. poly life is really a whole new level..alot of stress ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. but still my faith resides in God..

Sigh somethimes i dunno what is happening.. i feel that i am going down like a spiral staircase.. went home alone yesterday and had many thoughts in my mind.. had a good talk with God yesterday and i somehow dont seem to understand things that are happening now but i guess this is what God wants me to go through to overcome it. I may not be a leader, a Ptl or a Tl but i can do things that they can do. I may not be the ministry head but if i go the extra mile i know i can be like them, with the same thinking about others, with the leadership, witht the heart to serve. exams in 50 mins time.. i got to go.. problems surface but i know i have got to overcome them one by one.. God pls help me...