Random blogging.. dont really know what to write about..no mood to almost do anything.. sian.. exams resume on monday.. first up.. english the subject that cause my class to fail..the internet can really be boring at times. went to the library to borrow a book called "90 minutes in heaven". not counted as borrow but is like book the book.. okok.. this is confusing.. life right now is really mundane.. as what i have written in my geography.. singaporeans thinks that like is singapore is mundane, boring.. but actually it is not... it is what u do with ur life that determines what kindof life u are leading.. leaders are rising up and people are getting into ministry.. but alvin is studying hard to get into ngee ann polytechnic biomedical.. the end to this long run seems so near yet so far..really got no mood.. chios

hmm.. exams sarted with a smooth road. what seems to me is that He is with me..i have faith.. and it is not like easy la.. hmm it was okay.. made some silly mistakes in chemistry but overall it was fine haha.. ended my day today and yesterday with a smile and a feeling in my heart that L1R4 will be <15...haha.. hmm.. i really cant wait for like 0s to come. cant wait to go for children camp and cant wait to go for zone camp..haha.. hmm futures great..haha.. i cant wait to go back to ministry haha.. cafe hospi.. yehhh... hmm.. i know God is gonna be with me throughout this exxam period and through my life.. God reigns.. he reigns he reigns.. yehhh..HOGC is my home..

What will never ever be replaced is God's love for me. what can never be changed is that he loves me no matter what happens. God loves us for who we are and not what we do. It is really time for us to rise up. church is gonna be bigger and bigger. i can imagine that our church is so big that we cannot find ur friend standing at the other end.haha.. i really find my walk with God amazing. although yes there would be ups and downs and including the deeper downs but in the end He is whom we really seek help and advise from. Spending time with God is not a routine. it is wad i wanna do. Going to church is not a routine but it is where i wanna go. No matter what happens i know He is always there for me. Os are like really nearing. i am really afraid. but there is something in me keeping me on the route. when there is fear there would be no faith. fear overcomes faith. i will INCREASE faith and DECREASE fear.sometimes what really makes me fe alone is that from moring till night, the house would be empty.. tears would start to trikle down my cheeks whenever i have this thought. mum and dad has to work, brother got to go skool. Left me. sigh. but i know i am never alone. For He is in me around me and beside me.I ALVIN LOW AM NEVER ALONE..0s is just a bearer. after that i am going to go all out for God. those who have 0s God bless

Hihi.. am here again. got to really mud and mug and mug.. biology practical in 2 days time..i cannot let all those who care bout me down. i must score well. just have to go through this 1 more month and i am free like a bird in the sky.. wow God is really amazing. i remembered i wanted get into hospi. but i got into cafe first.. then one day God really answered my prayer that i had longed for for 3 months. I just realised the ministries i am in are people oriented. is that the correct term??hha.. God is just really amazing lor.. ya.. and i really love church.. REALLY REALLY LOVE.. it is just really in God's plan for me to be in this family that i really love.. NO mount given would uy me off from this relationship i have with God and the church people.. I LOVE THEM ALL..haha.. I have this feeling that God has a really really big plan for me. ya.. God will d whatever we cannot do if we do what we can do.. come to think of it, God was always there with me. From bith till now.I LOVE GOD AND I KNOW HE LOVES ME>> HAHA.. got to go people cheow..

Alvin is back on his feet and is going to go all out for the Lord. As i sat at the cafe area and glance by what is happening aroud me, i realised church is really growing bigger and bigger.. Memories come rushing tome vidvily as i watched people playing and running around in church. i remember whe we were in children church, i was always voluntering to be the OHP person.This job is to flash the songs and at the end keep it into the file we had for all the songs. I also remember that there was this board where it had all our names and we wil collect stars whenever we went for service. Then at the end we can exchange it for prizes..haha..children church really gave me a happy childhood. although i already had one.But this childhood was different..then we graduated and went on to teens. The teacher whom thaught us was teacher Jean. wonder where she is now. we really had alot of fun and also learnt alot. i remember once that Pastor Lia prayed for me and i fell under the power of God. it was the first time i had ever experience this.. Teens was realy fun..haha.. then graduated again. went to Youth. this time i was really scared.i did not even know anyone and everyone seemed like a stranger to me. But God showed me the way and gave me strength.Now the alvin all of u know was a different alvin compared to the past. Now i not only love God but also cherish all the things that is around me. The past has already happenend. And i know i am forgiven of my past. Now alvin is fully charged and on the route of becoming a more on fire christian. Nothing seems more important than this relationship with God. Not saying that everything is not important. It is just that God will always be the number one in my heart. He is my first love and forever will be my number one. No doubt i love Him.. haha.. got to go.. exams in round 1 week plus. having biology practical next tuesday. cant wait for 0s to finish. and i will go all out for Him. =)

Removed my chatbox due to some nothing to do people tagging it.. There are some people whom seriously has nothing better to say and just maglining other people when that person did not even do it.. but i know my past is forgiven. And i do not hate them la.. just dislike ba.. i think so.. my life seems like a bleak right now.. where is the light. i feel so lonely, so alone. Have i lost my vision?? Have my faith level just went down and down and down?? yesterday was a emotional day for me. due to stress all that.. but so what i know i am secure. people may say what they want to say. but i am who i am. He has created me as i am. but i know changes must occur in everyone. and i am going through this stage. THE LORD'S JOY IS MY STRENGTH. 1 more month in school i will go through it.. no matter what will pull me down.

It is coming, it is coming very very soon. just 2 more weeks..practical in 3 days time and 2 more weeks to 0s.. sometimes i am really scared of it.. really very afraid that i would fail. made new friends in church these few days.. even have those who know me and i dont know them one haha.. church is really growing bigger... must know as many people as we can.. if not we would not be able to find each other haha..i think my blog is dead or something.. i sometimes feel as though i am drifting away from God. something that my principal said really makes sense. whenever we have problems, we are never alone. cos God is always guiding us and beside as no matter what happens. We have got to rise up.Church need more leaders.. haha.. i got to go already.. bye peeps.. tag b4 u go.. thanks