Hihi.. yesterday was reading 1 corinthians and i had many revelations. 1 corinthians is a book on what apostle paul wants the corinthians to change their life in. And since God has dropped this dream in me i know He wants me to do something to the life that i am leading. sometimes questions just runs through my mind.. many questions.. i always ask myself do i have the ability to catch up with the reat. Yes my spirit wants to but the body is reluctant. I WANNA GROW. i want to run this race to the end. I will perserve till the race ends. But i know i have to tap into the strength of the Lord and i will. i realised using ur own strength will make u burnt out. But it makes a great deal of difference when u tap into God's strength. I know it and why, it is bcos i have experienced it before.. but i know i will not have that experience again. I will find solutions to my problem and not burden my leaders or my brothers or sisters.. i learn that i should depend more on God and not based on my own understanding.. thus i pledge myslef to GROW.. and i will thanks so much.. smiles.. got to go

I am secure. No matter how people look and think about me i am gladly to say i dont care. Cos i know no matter what happens God is with me. This insecure heart of mine is changed. I am dead in the spirit and born again waliking side by side with Jesus christ. I am glad to say I AM A CHILD OF GOD. No matter what happens i am going all out for Him. I am happy to have known such a good fren whom has helped me. Whether it is problems or just simple sianess he has helped me. Even changed my thinking and how i see things. Well i believe it is in God's plan... Thanks so much.. smiles i know all these events are in God's plan. somtimes things would not go smoothly but at the end i end up learning somthing knowing that it would change my life.

Anyway today went to sim lim square with josh and clarence. Thanks so much for going with me dispite that u all did nothing. i went there to change my external hard disk. name called:hot pink. cos it is hot pink in colour. then waited for ryan. after that went to meet the rest at peninsular plaza to buy guitar strings. oh i was shocked today. Joyce can play guitar.. haha..anyway things are fine now and thanks so much for everything. I AM A CHANGED PERSON.. ALVIN 2.0.. haha

These few days i have learnt to have faith in God for whatever i am doing and not fear. Yes we may fail in certain ways but if we fail and constantly tell ourselves that we cant do it then it is the same as giving up. I dont want to be a person whom gives up. I hope everyone will not give up in what they are doing. Easter is coming and my cousin is coming... yes.. well i hope he will stay in church and not only come for major events.. Cafe is very very very busy with Easter big day. Sometimes what really weighs my heart is the crews.. What has been constantly going through my mind is how are we able to bring cafe to another level? How are we going to be like ritz carlton or better than ritz carlton??.. Cafe 2.0 i want it to be soon.. How?? Cafe has very good crews.. willing to serve no matter what job it is i can say it is serve servant-heartedly..and yes it reminds me of when i first stepped into this ministry"cafe".. i am learning to be like them and i want to be like them.. There are so much fun this coming easter. Oh i just realised this Easter is the first time where-by my desktop has so many excel documents.. i really wish that this Easter will be a successful one.. Oh last week i had a double mention dream. In my dream God told me to flip to 1 corinthian chapter something verse something. The only word i remember is change and then i woke up forgetting what i had just read. Then i told myself i must have that dream again. Then it really happened. But the same thing happened. Well i know what i must do. I must read 1 corinthians and change according to it. I know it is a dream God has dropped into me and the changes He wants me to make.. I am really thankful for all that He has done. Got to go rush the plans for cafe le.. haha.. Last phrase for the day, If u think u can, u can.. Dont ever give up. If u give up u would have lost the battle even without fighting. U CAN DO IT.. smiles.. ok got to go bye guys

As i look back and think of what i have done in my walk with God, i am happy that i came back to church. Although i went through alot but i know allt hat are learning points for me. Whether it is discipleship or just small little reminders, it is all these that build me up. Looking back at how i served in cafe back in Ftms house, i realised that in singpost i was just not doing as well in hospi and cafe comapred to singpost. What really rang in my mind is the words said by my hospi ic. She said, it is not the number of times u serve in ministry. It is how you serve in your ministry. As i slowly pace back to how i have served in cafe last time, i realised the difference. As i go back to serve on the cafe ministry, i realised that the feeling of serving in cafe is coming back. Sometimes i wish that i did not change. I wanna be on fire more and more. While writing this, part of pastor's sermon came to my mind. He said "you need not have a title to do something big it is all about the heart". i think it is said like that. hmm.. thus this has been going in my mind. I dont need a title. All i need is to have the right heart and do it. Thus I dont need a title. I just want to Please people and Serve God. and i am happy doing that. I dont care about titles. I just want to serve as i did back in Ftms house. Able to serve God and i am contented. Hmm so my goal for this few months is to be how i served back in Ftms house.haha.. yupp.. Yesterday pastor said that as time comes cafe has to be like ritz carlton.. as he said that my mind was like hmm how are we going to do that.. and it is still in my mind. one thing i really hope is that cafe crews would really not see what they do in cafe as a chore but enjoy what they do everytime.. I wanna bring cafe to the next level. But how??... shallt hink of it.. ok got to go.. bye